@Cracked73 , I could have written this myself. I also feel I am at the end of my rope and mental health. I love my husband but feel his complex-PTSD consumes him and he has no empathy for anyone but himself. I have had conversations with him where I have told him that if he doesn't love me anymore to please admit it and we can figure out the best way forward for the kids. I feel like i am here as a mother and financial contributor and although he does kind and caring things here and there, the weight of his trauma turns him into someone I don't know most of the time. It is sad because I still love him but as the song says...sometimes love is not enough. He also makes compulsive expensive purchases. It is a common thing for people with complex-PTSD apparently. I try to keep myself busy and like you, read books on the subject, try to reson through trigger events, pray and hold my children tight. I, like you hope your wife and my husband see the light and come back to us one day. I don't know how much longer I can hold on and I do pray for a miracle. I miss him. He is not the man I married. I do wonder if the man I married is somewhere inside him. Wishing you strength and peace.
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