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[DownMoreThanUp]

@Realness @heartathome  @Honeymoon @ENKELI @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @tyme @c-user1999 

Made it through the night without rage and sleep  6 1/2 hours. Needed to take more sleepers to get it, but maybe for a few days i can get away with doing that. as far as i'm concerned sleep is number 1 now. Very down tho. and old psychosis been pushing hard for 'all of this i have seen' as part of a psychosis - my family leaving me - and then me dying during that time - and so much more. We even had thunder and lightening last night - all part of the same vision. Not scared - but wanting it to be - but knowing when psychotic thoughts push i'm on the edge. Luckily the oil i have been using has proven to keep these urges from escalating ever since i have been taking it. i have also got a re feral to a psych that can help me to gain what i need to keep the voices (about 80 percent) and the rage (between 60-100 percent, unless focused on the voices as the devil) down prior to psychosis.

Going to be full on if i drop much lower. Jesus has been very close. Every pushy though - good or bad - i try to share with Him.

Mourning my family deeply. But also happy i can let them go. The strain to try and hold onto them had become impossible my wife lying about us and herself like she has for so many years. She being truthful, although bad news, i kind of guessed by what she had  been doing - breaking down contact more and more - very much unlike her normal self.

Also interesting how she again counselled counselling i rift - because it would have been focussed on more stability for me her effort. i asked for a restoration of at least normal contact not just good morning with love hearts and good night for i did but nothing much else. She has never needed to treat me like that. Or discussed her feeling the need to do that. All she has done is blame for all her actions while i was trying flat out to please her every demand she has made the last 5 years - and she has not even given me one of my requests however small.

So hard to realise she lied to me about who she was underneath her sweet smile. However knowing she does because of my own psychotic outrage makes it easier to forgive, the betrayal and total isolation remains tho.😢

The Geese (12) are very noisy my wife does not want them killed or take them away so she told  me to stop feeding them so they leave by themselves. They have been calling me all morning. Hopefully they wont stay too long fro they make it impossible to sleep during the day. Fowls not too bad yet but in Winter they are the same.

Seeing my counsellor at 5 pm

@moderator Not sure you can help .  i could not login with recovery either. i  reinstall my operating system and now my login wont work. not sure how to go about that still have two sessions left.

[Ru-bee]

Hey @DownMoreThanUp hearing that you're working through a lot of emotions regarding your family and that accessing your last few sessions would be important right now. If you're having trouble logging in to your Recovery Club portal I'd recommend giving the SANE Service Enquiries line a call so they can help to get you back in on 1800 187 263

[DownMoreThanUp]

@Ru-bee Thanks got it sorted! Seeing counsellor  Monday👍

@Realness @heartathome @c-user1999 @Honeymoon @ENKELI @Appleblossom 

Very low spells waving up and down. Still riding the waves. Still in contact with Jesus - that is best support by far right now.

Also got a call from a past foster child - grown up now - trying to stay out of jail on probation. A lot of loving support from there that was good this morning.

My natural (apart of one)  family cut me off, even my beloved wife, but our adopted daughter loves me the same as always, and our ex foster son as well. Also has massive trauma as well as identity issues and top of mental illness - and is currently on probation, and has been very occupied transiting into a female, as well as busy bringing charges against ex government workers for sexual abuse.

So many sad stories around in this world.

[heartathome]

“Come to me, all of you who are tired and have heavy loads. I will give you rest.”

Matthew 11:28 (ICB) 🙏

Biblical Summary:

In this verse, Jesus Christ invites weary and overwhelmed people to come to Him honestly, just as they are. The “heavy loads” can mean grief, fear, shame, stress, exhaustion, responsibility, or spiritual burdens. His promise of “rest” is not only physical rest, but also inner peace, comfort, safety, and relief for the soul.

The heart of the verse is that God does not ask struggling people to become strong before coming to Him. He welcomes them while they are tired and burdened, and offers compassion, renewal, and hope. 💚

@Realness @DownMoreThanUp @ENKELI @Appleblossom @Shaz51 

[DownMoreThanUp]

@heartathome "The heart of the verse is that God does not ask struggling people to become strong before coming to Him. He welcomes them while they are tired and burdened, and offers compassion, renewal, and hope. 💚"

That is the best part of The Gospel. It is not us lifting ourselves up into Heaven becoming good Christians trying hardest, but God coming down into our wretchedness and corruption and cleansing us with His blood down there and bring us New Life in and with Him

@Ru-bee @Realness @c-user1999 @Honeymoon @Appleblossom @ENKELI 

Rapture

I thought I been no good all my life,
held fast in cold, loveless strife.
Most of me had little faith in grace,
my loveless ways hid me from His face.

In my bad life I was untrue, insincere,
weak, overcome, consumed by fear.
I could not believe God loved me as well,
still listening to what those liars tell.

Great hailstones pounded down on me,
as I saw how wrong I come to be.
Fire and brimstone fed despair,
truthfully loving thoughts were rare.

“Where is your God?” tormentors cried,
the pit yawned open, dark and wide.
My good life burned up as I fell down,
in my godlessness I began to drown.

Unbearable agony—sinner's fate,
flames of lies that burn and berate.
Self-hate stoked the furnace high,
gnashing teeth, an endless cry.

So I languished, lost in fate,
still asking how I come too late.
Unbelief constantly feeding misery,
as I watched myself turn ungodly.

My hell an endless, tortured night,
born from the bad life held inside.
Loveless deeds, untrue and deep,
now fire and judgement reap for keeps.

But after years, the Truth broke through,
God's grace reached into all I knew.
My bad life left to judgement's keep,
as angels came and reaped His sheep.

Awakened, i rose as from the dead,
His breath of truth filled me instead.
An army stood within my soul,
His blazing light became my goal.

Then in a moment, i rose to the sky,
to meet my Lord in the blink of an eye.
Behind me fell the rule of the lie,
as judgement answered every cry.

His smile held no trace of harm,
sin lost its will within His charm.
Even as He baptised me His holy fire,
truth restoring my life's desire.

A holy host Jesus brought down from Above,
rebuilding me in His kingdom of love.
He taught my heart His righteous way,
His love drove the rule of wrong away.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ofx5ln4qWp4&list=RDeOYJr6lF_Bc&index=2

[DownMoreThanUp]

@ENKELI Dear sister we have been missing your input. i hope you are okay? Been praying for you each time you come to mind.

Life down here is hard i fully agree.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TyOT6ghkcrA&start_radio=1

[DownMoreThanUp]

@heartathome @Realness @ENKELI @Appleblossom @tyme 

i have been missing you all very much. i hope this thread has not died the friction of lately. That would be such a shame.

i have been struggling a lot the letting go bit. i know both of us have to do this. i have put my trust in Jesus to know what is best thing to do. i have no one else i can trust.

The rage has completely gone the break. Which was a very surprising and welcoming thing to happen so rapidly after cut off.  Jesus has been rebuilding my spiritual boundaries according to the Ezekiel instruction of Worship and going in and out of that. This has been good for my chaotic mind and all over the place self when it comes to my spiritual discernments.

Ezekiel 44-48 say so very much about the right order and layout of myself in my body of believers within. His wooden alter running streams of living waters Revelation 21-22 with and in Jesus. Truly Ezekiel is the Book of Christ's heart fro us all Revelation O.T. style.

Blessed Sunday.

Love this song since i was a teenager. So wish i would have understood to practise it the last 4 years satan knocking on my door my families baggage almost nightly.😭

Salvation in Christ.
Revelation 12:10

Let us know our sin and misery,
for then alone we will want Christ.
Us crying out to Jesus for cleansing,
His blood washing us deeply within.
Psalm 51:10-17 , Hebrews 10:22, 1 John 1:7–9.

God's grace lifts away our guilt
and melts the weight of shame,
washing a guilty conscience,
a glorious crystal sea within.
Isaiah 61:7, Joel 2:26–27, Romans 8:1-3.

The pure in heart shall see God,
beholding Him upon His throne.
All Heaven bows before Him,
The Lamb slain our sinful guilt.
Hebrews 10:19-24, Revelation 4:5-6 , Revelation 15:2.

Freed hearts rejoicing His Glory
praising Jesus The Christ,
ruling upon God's mercy seat,
the glory of our King.
Matthew 5:8, Revelation:3:20-21, Revelation 7:13-17, Revelation 20:4-6

For all that accuses us within
is brought to nothing his sacrifice
All ruling us wicked sores collapsing,
The liar cast into the pit his lies dug us.
Isaiah 53, John 1:29, Revelation 5:12, Revelation 20:1-3

For even as The Lamb opens the seals,
He reveals our true life hidden in Him
Us elected Chosen to united for forever
resurrected His life in His Truth.
Psalm 110, Hebrews 4:16, Hebrews 9, Revelation 3:21

For even as our Chosen are raised:
all killed heeding lies within us
begins to breathe again God's breath,
Christ's Spirit ruling our hearts.
Ezekiel 37:4-14, John 10:10, Romans 8:11.

Peace and Rest governing heart and mind
the slave of old bought free His new.
Our hearts slowly transforming His love
Good life lived in Him restored again.
Romans 8:1-2, Galatians 2:20, Ephesians 3:17.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xE7U3yKRHKY&list=RDxE7U3yKRHKY&start_radio=1

[Realness]

Hi @DownMoreThanUp ,

Our chat has gone quiet. I also miss @Appleblossom and @ENKELI . I know @heartathome has her hands full.

The log in changes have made it a little less user friendly. And I lost a long post I prepared which has spooked me a bit. The drafts backup seems to have disappeared and I don't want to waste my time on a post that disappears again. Also, I had a little difficulty tagging some people - but seems to be working okay now.

I started Revelation in my Bible reading/study. Today I spent time in Revelation 2 and 3 - the letters to the churches. I'm not sure I understand Revelation enough to summarise it.

I'm thinking I need to think of a new way to contribute. I'm thinking I will share from the theology course I'm doing as I'm up to the revision for the test stage.

It's nice to hear you're having a better day. Your property sounds wonderful.

Hi to all. @tyme , @MissGremlin , @Shaz51 .

[DownMoreThanUp]

@Realness Wonderful hearing from you.  These believers, i have bumped into have a video on all chapters of the book of Revelation if you are interested comparing notes.. It are two wonderfully sincere and knowledgeable people.

@heartathome @ENKELI @Appleblossom @tyme @Shaz51 

 a link their Revelation intro as well as chapter 1 

They have a video on all chapters!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFmEhXTuM4Q

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sB7_pg8_woI

[Realness]

Thanks @DownMoreThanUp . Support button not working at the moment.