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[heartathome]

Good morning @REDLINEZ750 I just wanted to let you know that my partner is up, and I haven't read your post yet. I have to take him to his daughters place this morning at some point. I promise I will read it and reply. I'll be on my own tonight so will have the opportunity! I wish you a good day with Pooky! 💛

[REDLINEZ750]

its ok @heartathome  theres no time limit or expectations please take your time i know you will.

hey would you mind if i add visual compliment to Therapy?

i saw it at start and i can take it from there if you ok the idea or another if you like.

for therapy i was thinking maybe a room with 2 chairs and scary storm clouds with sun rays breaking through the clouds but just an idea if you have something to start with we get it right from there../.

hope its not as humid nth coast as here, yeah i am blue mountains/gulumada  i just remembered you mentioned thinking it so sorry if i confused you

[heartathome]

Thanks for giving me time to read your post in private @REDLINEZ750 

My partner is staying till Thursday now. I'll take him to the cremation on Monday and the farewell for his younger brother on Thursday. He's more devastated seeing his sister's grieving. He doesn't know how to handle other people being upset very well! The family have told him to look spiffy (he's always in shorts or tracksuit pants) and not to be late (he's always late). He's wearing shorts and a t-shirt! It's going to be a hot day, and he won't wear a suit. I love how he lives to the beat of his own drum! People with Autism are such genuine and unique human beings. His family will be very angry with him, I suspect. I'll be there to support him whatever he wears! I don't understand why dress matters but they will all be in black. I'll follow suit although it wouldn't be what my partner or I would choose. 

Putting visual to 'Therapist' would be great! Go for it!! I like the idea you already have but maybe just start off with the two people sitting across from one another with a light background, although there have been plenty of storms in there over the last 26 years. I don't know how many times I've told him to f off or f you and slammed his office door over the years! He has never taken it personally that I'm aware of. 

It's a pretty cool 25 degrees today so I have long sleeves on inside the unit. I haven't ventured outside yet. You didn't confuse me! I couldn't remember if it was you or someone else who lived near the Blue Mountains. I thought it was you and I was right. How are you and Pooky doing? Do you feel vulnerable since you posted some of your journey? I think everyone here loves you and appreciated you sharing! 💛

[REDLINEZ750]

i reckon his younger brother want see your partner as he is @heartathome  come as you are 

think i feel more genuine now well as genuine as anonymous can be 😁

some times when threads are quiet i see new posts of people starting new threads and if its something i been through i will share what i know maybe it might be helpful, also so thtey get a response  ifwhite knuckling waiting for something or someone to respond.

 drugs and alcohol have come up,, grieving, broken hearts ,long term relations ending,  and though never challenged which i got covered anyway it could of looked like this guys got an answer for everything  hes naking shit up.

responding when you asked about your son i felt i was decieving you by not disclosing my own struggles with abstinance since a teenager so if anything im relieved you now could now make an informed choice when keeping in touch knowing what i had been hiding.

it is only recently i stuffed up after 8 yrs and already have a bed booked for me start over again

yayyy 😐

[heartathome]

I'm so glad you feel more genuine. I believe you've always been genuine! I think that not being ready to share something and not being genuine are two different things. I've only been on the social thread since I started. I think @Shaz51 tagged me here. I honestly don't have the energy to reach out to others to support them atm. That you're doing it is great! Supporting others while being supported yourself - win/ win!

'could of looked like this guys got an answer for everything  hes naking shit up' 

I totally get that. I feel like whatever people say, I think yeah, I know that one! I think I must have looked for every 'wrong' thing to do when I was younger. I also felt like I had a sign on my forehead, saying 'please abuse me'. I got myself in all kinds of pickles! 

Don't get down on yourself for not disclosing to me sooner. Not everything comes out at once, like some childhood trauma's that we can't go into. I think we are fine to talk about how it's affecting us today, because it does. It's different with my son because he is my son! I don't know if you can make sense of that. I'm not sure I do. I'm ready for bed so I'll say goodnight now 💛 

[AuntGlow]

Oh, your new therapist sounds really lovely. It's so important to have someone meet us where we are at, isn't it? 

How are you feeling today? @REDLINEZ750 🥰

[heartathome]

Good morning @REDLINEZ750 Did I see right your post right? Are you moving and got a job there? I'm sorry if you've already told me! I can't remember.

I've got to go and get results of a bl*** test this morning. No biggy. Just checking cholesterol and thyroid.

Today will be 32 degrees but tomorrow will be a hot one at 35. Thankfully, the farewell is at a beach, so hopefully we should get a breeze!

t's been too hot for my son to walk his dog through the day now. The pavements and roads are too hot for her pads. He now goes for night walks with her. It was 37 feeling like 42.5 degrees where he was yesterday! He was struggling with a little fan, and poor Polly was on the kitchen vinal floor, trying to cool off. It's time for a bigger fan! 

Are you up to anything today or resting out of the heat? I know you don't like the heat. 💛

[heartathome]

This is me with social calls @REDLINEZ750 😂

[REDLINEZ750]

oh thats soo me as we;ll @heartathome, if do get me on phone im very short hahaha

obviously no aircon for your son and polly ouch!

does he have good curtains to keep shut at least?

your bang on about me and heat only thing worse is humidity ,

horrid shit there should be a law against it !

nah not moving my friend was a bit of banter with bunniekins and dreamy talking bout going to to denmark i think where its snowing i signed up as bell boy. im unemployable at moment as i  dont think rationally if my flight activates suddenly  from being startled or sensory overload.

only been that way since 2yrs ago

 i will be  living  central coastish next week until may but still have phone at least no laptop thoug.

actually Surry hills next week 6 days then next stop for 16 to 20 weeks 

how are you?

i will be thinking of you and oartner tomorrow

yeah now that sounded all kinds of  creepy 🤔

[REDLINEZ750]

i just saw the post a little back and i dont know how i didnt get back and thank you on the 22nd im ewally sorry @heartathome

yes it is good @AuntGlow i still struggle with loss of first one and its only for having her i know what im allowed yo expect its strange, i dont mean to say the ones i refuse are bad im sure they help some people im just not the one rule fits all kinda bloke and trying to handle me or treat me like i know nothing  just encourages me to show thier error.

i will be thinking of you tomorrow heartathome seeing someone you love heartbroken is the breaking of your own, i hope its a respectful gathering and if your unable to get on i look forward to catching up soon and actually getting some back n fprth with you it seems like ive been slack you have always been kind and accepting of me and your words have mage all the difference for me consistently my groovy forumite friend 😉😁🚲