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[LeChuck]

would love to chat anytime @tonys  but I have no idea what thread to do it in!

How are you going @EternalFlower ?

[tonys]

hey there  @LeChuck .   How are you mate.    In  hospital,    Cant feel good but we let go and its where the currents take us some times.   Mate.   I  have a confession to make.

Half the time I don't even know what thread I'm in.   See  a kite come in the mail box and it takes me to Sane Fms and then so busy reading and thinking,  I forget to look where I'm at.

I seem to like the   " grate full'    thread lately,  because its like the song. . .

Shining Happy People holding hands.     But then music thread cheers me up too.  And then I get the odd home work assignment handed to me.   Love those.   Had the odd tiger stalk me,

so change lanes from time to time, . . .  writing is sharing ,  and  venting. 

But    I will go where ever you go fella.   Your scarcity hides how smart and methodical you work a problem,   and  It more than peaks my interest.    I  think there is a deep and wise person in there that i would like to know more about.  Helps me learn too.

So,  Lately  the farm means late hours for me,  or rainy days.  but i do look in as many doors as I can when the crickets are singing,    Will tag you more if  O k.

So,    what ever you want to talk about,  and where ever,   a tag  will wormhole me to your galaxy..        

Thinking   of you   Le chuck.                                  tonys  m b 1

[LeChuck]

Thanks @tonys . Would love a tag now and then, just don't want to chat on our support thread for eternal, theyve got enough on their plate without us yakking away about bill dust haha

[tonys]

OK .  will keep that on stiky note on fridge.   What threads   do you mostly frequent.

tonys.

[LeChuck]

None at the moment. Struggle town resident here. Maybe I should make my own. Anywhere will do, just a random tag or two to keep me distracted 🙂

[EternalFlower]

Happy to listen @LeChuck sometimes its really unfair to have a rough time. Im glad u can voice it and hope ur ok

[EternalFlower]

Hello all hello dear @LeChuck and my friend @Appleblossom @watcher and kind @tonys @Sophia1 @Shaz51 

Today was a bit tispy turvy messy and hard.

People do not know i discharged myself from hosptial because it wasnr helping, and are congratulating me on thw great news of being out. I cant express myself properly and cant speak about what its like therr because i assume people find it boring so it leaves me feeling isolated in this world of wards.

I am having trouble with my Dr who i feel messed everything up regarding my stay but remained blissfully ignorant of his role in this.

I hope everyone is ok and im here for u if u need

[tonys]

hey there eternal  @EternalFlower    First chance ive had to log in.  First  thing,  You are my 

mate.   So   you could   rob the federal reserve bank . . !,     wouldn't change a thing.   You'll   always be my.  .   MATE . . .     Second..  You are certainly  never boring my friend.  I  always like to hear what ever you have to say.   When I worry is when you say nothing.

You never have to tell friends stuff to impress them or  feel pressure to please us,  and sorry if you feel that pressure . Ive been with you a while through ups and downs,..   of course we like hearing about the wins.   but this is about listening to what ever,  . .   when ever.  Even on your worst days you are always kind.   If I had just one hour to  live,  I would quite happily put my feet up,  pop a cork,  and share it with you my friend.

Tell you a secret.  Often   I will just leave a note for the book keeper,   pack my bed roll,  and thumb a lift  to god knows where,   And then just float back in when Ive made up an answer I believe in enough or the bats have all gone. 

  We  do  what  we  must  my  very  dear  friend.

Tonys   moon base one 

[tonys]

Roger that    @LeChuck   ,    If you start one,  send me a kite so I find you please.

Rest up friend.          tonys   m  b  I

[LeChuck]

@EternalFlower I am having a lot of trouble talking and organising my thoughts too. I finally built up the courage to explain that to my loved ones and friends and ask if we can talk via text instead. I just said to them on the phone, I'm sorry but I'm having a lot of trouble talking and organising my thoughts, is it ok if we text instead? And everyone has been supportive of it. I find it a lot easier to say I'm struggling but ok and explain things through words on a screen than I do face to face or on the phone. I can't explain things properly or do faces right fast enough at the moment for phone calls and face to face. I can hardly speak on the phone and it just makes me feel shit, so. Being able to reach out through a text and talk that way is helping with the isolation in here. I don't know if that is an option for you but it's working for me. I am making an effort to keep my texts short and to the point and not overwhelm anyone but it's great for people to even understand a little and keep that social connection going.

Sorry that things are still so tough. Sending good vibes eternal!